This is one of the lowest points of my weeks. Aside of having waiting for my extremely delayed period due to PCOS, I have been extremely irritated to the fact that I have been moody and resenting this body. Then finally the bad blood expels itself out recently to which I am absolutely grateful for, when I was away with my family for a short holiday.
On this day, I see pictures of me flying around in the Family Chat Group. I am not photogenic. Yes. I have always known that. But the weight and water retention that I had absorbed during this time while waiting for the period has given me an uglier face. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
I makes me think why in the world did he remarry me? How can you appreciate the woman who repeats herself the same through both marriages? And absolutely, why do I do this to myself? Do I really need to self-punish me this way?
But seriously, I feel ugly inside out.
And I also hate this arrogant bastard in the office who is arrogant. There are in fact, two of them.
I may be going on this self-loath/hate/troubled feeling rampage throughout the day. So I may as well just let myself vomit my feelings out in here.
Can I cry now?
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